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Enigma
Part
5: "Desolation"
By
Splash
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Hey!
*huggles reviewers* That one's for ya.
One quick doobie--
Sailor
Gotland: "I hate being touched by strangers" is a straight out
translation from episode 2, the pour soul. T_T
The official age for the kids in
Frontier
(except Tomoki) is 11 (Izumi makes it a big deal that she's 3 months older than
Takuya, that...female... -_-; ).
However, in this fic I
would
consider them in their teens. ^_^
Disclaimer:
Digimon Frontier and its characters belong to Toei, not me. This is fanmade material, and by freedom of
speech and all sorts of other
random
laws wonderful America has, I have the right to make this kind of stuff, so
don't try it. XD
****
The
view of the three colored moons was nothing compared to Kouji that night. He was so natural, so keen to everything
around him. He could focus on
all
or nothing, and his ability to focus on one person...
I
realized the moment I kissed him how irresistible he was. After the initial placement wore off I moved
closer for a deeper taste of him.
Kouji's
released
the tension on his shoulders in my hold, and before I knew it he was kissing
back, using even more force. I moaned
lightly at the pressure,
and
extended my arm around his back.
I
never imagined that anything like this would happen. I knew there was always something I wanted to know about Kouji no
matter how much time I spent
with
him. But the possibility that there was
something I didn't know about MYSELF had never occurred to me. I had true feelings for him... I
couldn't
deny myself that. My reasons for
wanting to be with him constantly, my reasons for caring for him... I wanted to
know him inside...
outside...
everywhere...
He
was unlike any other person I had met, his personality allured me in every
way... so much... And at that instant, he was so complying it almost
made
me cry...
My
tongue traced his bottom lip, and he pulled back, out of breath.
There
was an unleashed hunger in his eyes as they bored into me, searching. Then he leaned forward, gently pushing me
back onto the field. He
hovered
over me, still staring intensely... and I remembered it. I remembered THIS scene, and now knew the
meaning behind it. Pinned without
direct
contact.
Kouji
advanced and took my lips, immediately pressing his tongue inside. I never expected him to be so aggressive,
but it wasn't something I would
complain
about...
With
newfound encouragement, I wrapped my arms around him tighter and followed his
example, clashing our tongues in a dancing fashion.
The
wind decided to gang up on us at that moment, bringing a heavy gust onto the
field. It caused Kouji to wince in its
piercing chill, and he moved
even
closer until I could feel the pressure from his shoulder blade. In a sense, it was like he was protecting
me...
As
the enduring breeze passed by us, I found myself toying with his hair. It was silky to the touch, and flowed like
water through my hands. I could
have
played with it all night... and Kouji wasn't refusing. The scene reminded me of our first night
together, but this time felt more complete...
yet
something was still missing...
Eventually,
Kouji rolled off my stomach and turned to his side. I sat up to stretch my arms.
"
Do you want to sleep here tonight?" he asked casually, looking up at me.
I
was speechless. I figured after the
first incident he'd... I mentally slapped myself. ' Look at what just
happened! He... he...'
It
must have been a while for Kouji said, " Well, do you want to?" He
was patient, but still demanding.
"
Y-yeah... yes, I do," I stuttered, blushing. Something about him let me admit my feelings more openly, and it
was quite strange.
A
trace of a smile played on Kouji's lips, and he brought an arm around my neck
and pulled me into his chest. I
remained rigid for a moment, not
expecting
him to be so... cozy. It felt so
nice... I nuzzled into his shirt, admiring the flesh I could see on his
collarbone area.
I
could feel Kouji take a deep exhale, and surprisingly, he relaxed greatly. I didn't think he was tense before...
Why
was he being so kind to me? It seemed
rather awkward that we were doing something so intimate already... Did he
actually feel that way? Did _I_
feel
that way?
"
Kouji?" I mumbled into his shirt.
After getting no response, I shifted my head to peer at him. He was already asleep, peacefully breathing.
' Oh
well,
live in the now and enjoy it.' I rubbed
his back for security and closed my eyes, forgetting my troubles to savor his
presence.
****
Takuya
was... a prick. That was really all
Kouji could think of to describe him.
Really, who wouldn't? The goggle
boy would constantly try to get
inside
his mind, tease him... touch him...
He
couldn't stand it at first. He didn't
want to become familiar with anybody in this strange world, only because he
didn't expect to stay in it for
long. But after his evolution, he knew that there
was a deeper meaning to his presence in the Digital World. No one could gain such power without a
reason
behind it.
That
wasn't what stressed him, however. It
was amazing how some of these huge events could be nothing compared to a small
personal problem. A
problem
with goggles and a cute smile...
He
remembered one particular meeting when he had ventured to the stream
nearby. Takuya probably would have
caught him without his bandana if not he
had
heard the boy's voice calling him.
Eventually, Takuya found him and ran down the hill to catch up.
Kouji
should have seen it coming, but he didn't that time. All it took was a simple misplaced pebble-- and Takuya
slipped. Kouji was in his path and
he
caught the falling boy. But there was
still momentum, and they both plunged into the stream... well, at least almost
halfway in. The way their
legs
stuck out was quite comical.
As
soon as Takuya resurfaced, he stammered apologies. Kouji just calmly used his arms to support himself, not even
bothering to shake the water on
him. Perhaps he was just feeling too lazy. But he could sense Takuya's eyes on him,
staring at the water trickling down his cheeks, off his chin...
Kouji
turned to Takuya and confirmed his sense, then turned to raise himself out of
the water. Still, he made no attempt to
shake himself dry.
"
Kouji?" Takuya said nervously, " Are you okay?"
An
exceptionally large droplet made its way from Kouji's bandana down his
face. He glanced at Takuya without
saying a word, then walked past him up
the
hill. Kouji felt contemplative, and was
organizing a few thoughts in his mind.
Takuya
followed him back to the other side of the hill and sat down next to Kouji, who
was staring up at the dark sky.
Kouji
wasn't angry at him, although with the way Takuya fidgeted, the goggle boy must
have thought he was. The two remained
in silence for several
minutes,
simply listening to the night sounds around them.
Within
that disarray of silence, Kouji built the courage to tell Takuya a story. It was a story about a boy whose father had
a job that involved a
large
amount of traveling. Because they never
stayed in one place very long, the boy was very unsettled. He had to change schools often, but by the
time
he adjusted to a new place he would have to go to a new one... again. Many people have tried to befriend him, but
he always refused their offer,
for
he knew that he would just be hurting them when he had to leave. He pushed people away to make sure they
didn't think of him more than just
another
person. Deep down inside, he just
wanted to be able to always be there for someone...
It
was Kouji's story, but Takuya already knew that.
What
left an impact in Kouji's mind was the last comment Takuya said to him that
night. They chattered about their pasts
during that time, and when
Takuya
got up, he placed a gloved hand on Kouji's shoulder. Kouji couldn't hold back his automatic response like he could
now, and shrugged off the
hand
hastily. " Kouji, we're in the
Digital World now. We're the grown-ups
around here. But even grown-ups have to
work together to succeed."
Perhaps
the revelation scared him, sparked fear in his veins. This was just too good to be true, to suddenly have found
settlement.
'
Maybe it IS too good to be true.' In any case, he didn't know how long he was
going to be in this world. He might
simply vanish back into the other
world
overnight and abandon Takuya. He
couldn't be depended on yet...
He
dreamed of being in the real world, residing in another foreign building,
observing the people in the streets. He
gripped the porch caging in
front
of him and gazed below him. Children
were playing with each other, laughing, hugging, crying, shouting... they
seemed more pale, brightened by
a
nonexistent light. They seemed so
dim...
Then,
in the center of the scene, was a boy in a red jacket, his head lowered and
covered with a hat. He stood out among
the rest, the most animated.
The boy lifted his face to meet with Kouji's,
smiled and waved. But this wave was not
a greeting... Kouji reached a hand out toward him.
"
Takuya!" he called. He gave the
boy in goggles a pleading look, his arm outstretched.
The
boy just shook his head sadly, and dissolved into the rest of the pale
crowd. Kouji backed from the porch,
pulling his hand back slowly. Kouji
was
left alone again. In the distance, he
could hear his father's voice, announcing their new destination, and ordering
him to pack up his
belongings.
He
collapsed into a kneeling position and cradled himself, struggling to hold back
his tears as he had done many times before.
****
Dawn
wore on them like unwanted clothes, clinging to their skins. Kouji stirred in its presence, immediately
gathering thoughts of the previous
evening. His gaze fell upon the boy in his arms, and
he smirked. Takuya's hat could fall of
his head at any moment because of the weight of his
goggles...
His
half smile disappeared quickly as he also remembered his resolution. Slowly, carefully, he willed himself to get
up and brought one of Takuya's
arms
around his shoulders. He trudged toward
the village where the other children were, carrying the sleeping boy with him.
Once
there, like a swift animal he rested Takuya in what was apparently his sleeping
area, a highly unoccupied gap between Tomoki and Junpei. None of
the
others were broken from their deep sleep, but Takuya mumbled a little. Kouji waited for a moment, watching those
usually energetic eyes open
lazily.
"
Kouji...?" he slurred, confused.
Kouji
leaned forward in response, and gave Takuya what passion he could without
waking him further. Too tired to figure
out what was happening,
Takuya
closed his eyes and welcomed Kouji's lips.
A hand made its way to his fiery brown hair tuffed under his hat. The hand caressed his neck for a
few
moments before Kouji pulled back.
Takuya was too overwhelmed to open his eyes again.
"
Things will be better this way, Takuya," was Kouji's last statement as he
got up and left. Takuya sensed this,
but was too exhausted to do anything
about
it. He fell back asleep, dreaming of
saving Kouji from his lonely world...
****
^^;;; It'll get better... I think. It depends. ~_^
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